I'm feeling very "woe is me" today. I'm running on maybe 3 hours of sleep. I haven't seen Gzilla in two days, pretty much. Wednesday night he saw a concert in Baltimore with his best friend, and last night I had a shopping date with becklette while he was at a friend's house. As soon as he got home, we went immediately into epic battle. It's not something I want to get all into at the moment (no it wasn't the big marriage fight again) but today I'm all puffy and can barely keep my eyes open.
It doesn't help that it's been 90 degrees here in April (wtf.) and everything is in full bloom, meaning my allergies are on overload. Plus, I started allergy shots this week, so Wednesday I was injected with everything I'm allergic to. I can't tell if I'm puffy from allergies or from crying. Or both. Probably both. I'll blame it on allergies.
But now I am emotionally drained. I want to just go back to bed, and watch bad movies. I feel like a horrible person, a failure, and I don't know what to do to snap out of it. Even the super cute ATL tops and capri jeans and my new sheep pajamas can't bring me out of this horrible feeling. I also have to work at my second job tonight, so I have another 14 hour day today. At least I can sleep in tomorrow? But then we're going to a friend's house and I have to pretend like everything is wonderful and I'm not terrified that one day I'll be homeless because Gzilla kicked me out.